2019, You're Here!
WOW!
Its been too long huh?
I just lost the 'touch' of writings...
I've been busy with stuff. He.
Anyway...its almost the end of 2018! Time flies. At first, it feels like a 'never ending' but then...here we are. Amazing *hence the sarcasm*, I know.
A lot happened in a year. Like so many things, when I look back, I just shake my head and asked myself "That really happened? wow." "I went through that? Damn."
You know, at first I thought I wouldn't survived, yet here I am. Walau harus sampai ngesot-ngesot, here I am. Damn.
The highlight of my 2018?
I graduated. Yep, I made it. Kuliah hampir empat tahun ngga kerasa, tiba-tiba gue berkutat dengan skripsi, banyak menangis dan merasa hampir gila, tapi akhirnya selesai juga. One thing, its never easy, but it gets easier, for sure.
Sebenarnya ada hal lain yang terjadi di tahun ini, yang benar-benar merubah gue. I can't exactly point out apa yang berubah, tapi rasanya gue berubah. Don't throw me that 'jadi superman' jokes, don't. 'Hal' yang gak mau gue bahas dan gue jadikan tulisan karena menurut gue gak worth it. Well, Probably I will, someday - gue sudah membuat draftnya di msword. He. Entah akan gue post atau engga.
Yang gue sadari adalah gue merasa lebih 'egois' untuk diri gue yang sekarang, lebih mengutamakan apa yang membuat gue tenang dan nyaman. Dari dulu, gue termasuk yang nggak suka ribet-ribet, makin kesini makin gak suka hal yang menurut gue bisa jadi sederhana namun orang-orang membuatnya jadi sulit, ugh.
"I simply put myself first" - rasanya hanya sejauh ini gue bisa mendeskripsikan perubahan yang terjadi pada diri gue.
I learned the hard way, to love myself again, to make myself whole again. I learned that the hard way. Damn. There are things that I'm sure its eating me alive but then I survived, with scratch of course.
Scars....no matter how deep they are, it will healed. Even if its feel like killing you - which ended up not. Just like what Kelly Clarkson said, what doesn't kill you make you stronger.
So far
what I have truly learnt is that, nothing is forever. There is good in this
world and you will find it again, same goes with bad.
I will attach images bellow that sum up the randomness of this post... (credit: @thoughtcatalog on instagram)
New
year, new me, as cliché as it sounds.
So thank you 2018. For the good and the bad, thank you. Next.
Its been too long huh?
I just lost the 'touch' of writings...
I've been busy with stuff. He.
Anyway...its almost the end of 2018! Time flies. At first, it feels like a 'never ending' but then...here we are. Amazing *hence the sarcasm*, I know.
A lot happened in a year. Like so many things, when I look back, I just shake my head and asked myself "That really happened? wow." "I went through that? Damn."
You know, at first I thought I wouldn't survived, yet here I am. Walau harus sampai ngesot-ngesot, here I am. Damn.
The highlight of my 2018?
I graduated. Yep, I made it. Kuliah hampir empat tahun ngga kerasa, tiba-tiba gue berkutat dengan skripsi, banyak menangis dan merasa hampir gila, tapi akhirnya selesai juga. One thing, its never easy, but it gets easier, for sure.
Sebenarnya ada hal lain yang terjadi di tahun ini, yang benar-benar merubah gue. I can't exactly point out apa yang berubah, tapi rasanya gue berubah. Don't throw me that 'jadi superman' jokes, don't. 'Hal' yang gak mau gue bahas dan gue jadikan tulisan karena menurut gue gak worth it. Well, Probably I will, someday - gue sudah membuat draftnya di msword. He. Entah akan gue post atau engga.
Yang gue sadari adalah gue merasa lebih 'egois' untuk diri gue yang sekarang, lebih mengutamakan apa yang membuat gue tenang dan nyaman. Dari dulu, gue termasuk yang nggak suka ribet-ribet, makin kesini makin gak suka hal yang menurut gue bisa jadi sederhana namun orang-orang membuatnya jadi sulit, ugh.
"I simply put myself first" - rasanya hanya sejauh ini gue bisa mendeskripsikan perubahan yang terjadi pada diri gue.
I learned the hard way, to love myself again, to make myself whole again. I learned that the hard way. Damn. There are things that I'm sure its eating me alive but then I survived, with scratch of course.
Scars....no matter how deep they are, it will healed. Even if its feel like killing you - which ended up not. Just like what Kelly Clarkson said, what doesn't kill you make you stronger.
Some pain did not last forever at least it doesn’t mean to.
I will attach images bellow that sum up the randomness of this post... (credit: @thoughtcatalog on instagram)
More importantly, I’m ending this year with confidence, new
found self-love and self-respect and I realize my relationship with my friends
are getting stronger too, they have taught me true love, supporting me at my
lowest. Life is definitely so much better with them on it. (words inspired by
kristennnbabyy)
Personally, I just wish 2019 would be a better year and I would be a better version of myself - tentunya dengan gue yang juga berusaha memperbaiki diri. Gue berharap 2019 menjadi tahun yang penuh sukacita, kebahagiaan dan tawa. And when things get hard (believe me, they definitely would) gue tetap akan bisa melewatinya dengan baik - bahkan jika gue harus sampai ngesot-ngesot. Things such as happiness…I guess we will never stop
searching for one.
I wish to leave every bad in 2018 and welcoming 2019 with a
new hope. The bad will always show up, but then again so will the good.
So thank you 2018. For the good and the bad, thank you. Next.
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