Sequel to 'A Decade', 2020

    We have actually spent 9 months and going 10 in 2020, feels like yesterday. Thank you Coronavirus. The year actually started pretty well, but then a virus decided to pay the entire world a visit. Ha. The jokes are on all of us. Some of us planned things ahead, some of us not really - me - felt like this year, this year is just...wow. Plans are ruined and changed drastically. I mean I don't really have anything planned but still, I feel like everything got messed up. 

    This year was supposed to be the year I get a job and make a living for myself, but again coronavirus decide to pay us a visit - a long one I may add - and put a pause on people's life (not literally, kinda), I mean day after day still pass but I feel like I'm stuck. Again, thank you corona! I mean, of course, there is no guarantee that everything will be I don't know anything but still, it won't be like now...I think the reality nowadays we are much slower than it should be. 

    Stay positive they said, well it is hard. When everyone around you still got their life running and you're the one who...kind of stuck, it is pretty hard. Sometimes I'm tired of living, not that I'm suicidal or anything. It's just I hope that I can put a pause on time so that it won't fly just like that. For the record, it's not like I didn't do anything, I try my best too, duh. But again, the situation is just not that supportive in the meantime

    It gets lonely too sometimes. Some nights I lay awake in my bed thinking "What is this?", conversing with my lovely wall about what could go different if it weren't for the corona. It gets depressing, yikes. I do realize that I'm not the only one, there are like 7+ billion people in the whole world, I'm not that special. But still. This year got a lot of us thinking about our life, about how easy it is for things to change completely, I mean it is a shock to all of us, who would've thought right? 

    ......life, you know....life.

    Well, there are still approximately 2 months and 3 weeks before this year ends, let's see where we're gonna end up. Stay positive right?!

Till we meet again.